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TIME & TIDE

Stormchaser

I got struck by lightning. 
A statistical anomaly. 
You may find it exciting.  
Not something I want to be but I got to be cognizant, calm and tolerant. 
I’m barely competent enough to explain the way that I exist. 
I didn’t ask for this. 
Actually, yes I did but I still have the nerve to complain. 

I’ve been chasing storms, praying for better weather. 
Get what you ask for.
Wishing it would be better. 
Because I’ve been chasing storms. 
What do I chase them for?
The lightning struck me. 
That makes me lucky…?

And they all say “Who do you think you are and where do you get the nerve 
to doubt the way things are?”
I’ve earned every scar but I don’t deserve more pain mainlined to my brain. 
You curse or praise my name. 
I will still complain. Yeah.

I’ve been chasing storms, praying for better weather. 
Get what you ask for.
Wishing it would be better. 
Because I’ve been chasing storms. 
What do I chase them for?
The lightning struck me. 
That makes me lucky…?

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

I’ve been chasing storms, praying for better weather.  
Get what you ask for. 
I wish it could be better. 
I’ve been chasing storms. 
What do I chase them for?
The lightning struck me. 
That makes me lucky. 

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

 

DAYLIGHT

Transparency 

I’m striving for transparency

Can’t see but I can feel

And the truth is what I fear

You’re by my side, that feels like a lie

 

It feels like a conspiracy

They keep the truth concealed

I can’t tell what is real

They’re by my side, that feels like a lie

 

Make a statement make a stand

Strike love in the hearts of man

Leave your mark inside a song

‘Cause people like me don’t live long

Broken heart inside my chest

How could I ever be my best?

Now I’m awake just let me rest

Now I’m awake just let me -

 

Maybe you are a demon

You walk in 2 worlds, belong in neither 

Your soul is gone and it’s lost in the ether

You’re on your own and you’re sentenced to live all alone

 

Can anybody hear me?

‘Cause I don’t think I’m real

Can’t you see that I’m right here?

You’re by my side, that feels like a lie

 

Left Behind 

 

A song keeps me mesmerized

A picture keeps me hypnotized

A broken promise keeps me warm

 

My soul’s been commodified

Beat broke and sanitized

Tell me what is this for?

Why do I work so hard

When I’m just getting by?

Is this fun anymore? It’s not enough to survive

 

Let’s not pretend that it’s okay 

When we know it’s not 

Say goodbye to opportunity 

You’ve got no shot

So who’s wrong? Who’s right? Let’s not waste our time

All for one and one for all we’ve all been left behind

 

They say no man is an island

So why do I feel all alone?

I say some days it’s still worth trying

To get through the day on my own

And I find it hard to say all this to you in a romantic way

But this land just wasn’t made for you and me

And soon you’ll see

 

If you’re looking for me, I’ll be stuck between my youth and maturity 

Fame and obscurity

If you’re looking for me, I’ll be stuck between my fantasy and reality

 

Let’s not pretend that it’s okay 

When we know it’s not 

Say goodbye to opportunity 

You’ve got no shot

So who’s wrong? Who’s right? Let’s not waste our time

All for one and one for all we’ve all been left behind

 

Arrival

 

This conversation is exhausting and I always say the wrong things

I think I know what this may cost me, but please hear me out

An explanation that is past due

I’m out of favors I can ask you

And I wouldn’t put it past you to just walk on out

 

Is my soul worth saving?

Am I a righteous man?

Are my mistakes all that I am to you?

 

I’ve tried so hard to change 

No matter what I do it feels the same

I did everything like you were in my way

 

Convince me I belong in a world that feels so wrong

Sometimes I wish you’d let this go

(Move on and let this go)

And despite how much I’ve grown I feel I’m still trying to atone

Sometimes I wish you’d let me go

(Move on and let me go)

 

Is my soul worth saving?

Am I a righteous man?

Are my mistakes all that I am to you?

 

Because I’ve tried so hard to change 

No matter what I do it feels the same

I did everything like you were in my way

And for all those things I said

I was talking to the you that’s in my head

You tried everything but you can’t make this okay

 

You were in my way

And you tried everything 

You can’t make this okay 

 

Peace Be The Journey 

 

I feel left out

I’m really not a party guy

But I see you at the party I’m not invited to

And I know

I know how you remember me

I’m not the person that I used to be

So who are you?

 

You must not know about the things you talk about

And do you think about the words you say out loud

They say what goes around comes around, please don’t come around again

We don’t have to be friends

 

We’re too far gone 

When I think about you and me I don’t feel any unity. 

We must be through

So read along

You’ll see that I’ve turned the page

I’ve accepted that people change 

So why can’t you?

 

And this town ain’t big enough for the both of us. 

 

I’ve had enough of one sided relationships

And being too high maintenance has lost its charm

I know it’s tough

But if you stop these things you say and just turn around and walk away

We promise you no harm

 

The Passenger

 

What are you doing here?

And how are you still down?

Probably should’ve left a long time ago 

You could be far away by now

Don’t say you’re here for me

‘Cause that I don’t believe 

A bitter angry misanthrope is all I’ll ever be

 

You must grade on a curve

I have better friends than I deserve

 

Nothing I say will come out right

But would you please stay right here tonight?

I’m the codependent definition

Why would anybody listen to me?

Could you please stay right here tonight?

 

What am I doing here?

Is this where I belong?

I’ve only tasted a bit of life

Where has the sweetness gone?

I try to slow down

But the clock moves too fast

And I can’t go back

You’re the passenger by my side

And I’m the one who survives

 

198 Broadway

 

I’ve blocked my path ahead and still I’m running 

I live my life like tomorrow isn’t coming

The songs I sung back when I was young don’t sound like they used to

And this mental wealth that I earned myself is getting harder to hold on to

 

If it’s the last time we ever sing

Just try to remember everything that we’ve been through

The good and the bad and in between

If it’s the last time I see your face

Just try to remember every place that we’ve been to

‘Cause you’ll never know how much this means

 

We broke our legs to build up speed and still we’re running 

I need to prove that I didn’t live for nothing

‘Cause I can’t believe in an industry that snapped my faith in two

And I have nowhere I can send my prayers

So I put my faith in you

 

Make a statement

Make a stand

And strike love in the hearts of man

Leave your mark inside a song

‘Cause people like us don’t live long

Broken heart inside my chest

How could I ever be my best?

Now I’m awake

Just let me rest

 

REVIVAL 

 

Fashion Statement Remix

 

I know nothing of fashion, I could barely see

But them colors is clashin’, they don’t look good to me

Don’t tell me lies right before my eye- them little fantasies

Just try honesty

 

Remember when we was babies? Used to drive mama crazy

I ain’t seen my friends lately - they all been raisin’ babies

Wish I had incredible arms - I’d hug you all at once


Pretend that I see you in stars

It get me through the winter months

But I’m gettin’ carried away - mind been so crazy today

Just couldn’t tell from the face, I really been missin’ my base


My baby be losin’ her faith, her brother keep pushin’ that base

Just clean it out, in due time, you won’t even notice the stains

 

I remember when you was just you


Didn’t think twice about the things that you’d do

Now you be checkin’ what status quo do


If I could just choose from out of the two

Between looking cool and popping out of the blue

Between staying put or them new altitudes - 


I would just dig them old clothes out the chute
 

and lay right back down out the couch wit’ you

 

Cats don’t know better than me

Dressed to the nines and damn it I see

Judging my walk before I can be

Never wear shame in repeat

Freshest of vans on my feet

Wool on my eyes to sleep

Now we fumble with time

Putting our love on the line

Why are your eyes so kind?

What is reflecting from mine?

 

You should come travel with me

Walking with bliss in the sea

Starts with the way that we leap

Dropping this tea as it steep

Look at the way that they creep

They see what you lack

Can you handle that?

Can you taste a fact?

Can you follow tracks? Man,

 

That took me way out

Fuck out my face now

They talkin’ real strange now

They dressing for lames, wow

 

Clarity

 

I’ve been following signs

Looking for a sign of life

And they say live your truth

Truth is I haven’t felt alive

What is a lie? What is truth?

What does this all mean to you?

There are things I can never know

 

It’s like I forgot how to speak

I want to speak truth to power but I feel so weak

Can’t explain things I can’t see

What does this all mean to me?

There are things you can never know

 

This clarity distorts my vision 

And if I can’t see how can I stay on track

And I don’t believe in superstition 

But I’m praying I find my way back 

 

I’ve been following signs

Looking for a sign of life

And they say live your truth 

Truth is I haven’t felt alive

What is a lie? What is truth?

What does this all mean to you?

I’m not sure I even know what I know 

 

 

UNDER TWO

5 Year Mess

I wanna be a legend that you can’t walk past
Survivor of the fire of the large car crash
I wanna do things you can’t control
And then defeat the odds that you think aren’t possible

It’s a shame that we couldn’t stay friends
Conspiracies about all my loose ends
One step forward, two steps back
It can’t work this time around

Taking things with no context at all
I held on to the names that I’ve been called
But now I’m making up for time that’s lost
Wonder what stability might cost
‘Cause I don’t know

I spent too much time
Just fainting from the signs
That I’d done wrong
And now I need to hide
I stayed in my head for too long
And now I know, now I know
I’m a good man

And a better friend
And I will not bend

SURVIVAL

Firesale

They’ve been sounding the alarms
When I should be putting fires out
Just want to stay comfortable
While I sleep unsafe and sound
And they all tried to warn me
But they didn’t say enough
Now the building is collapsing
While I should be waking up

And I know it’s not as scary with my eyes closed
And I know I’ll be gone before anyone knows.

There’s no aftershock
Because it feels like a constant earthquake
Make it stop
Because I just need to stand up straight
I cannot live with my whole world crumbling around me
Just let me get my wits about me

But at least I’m warm
I really should’ve been warned
If I were to trap myself inside that I would be burned alive
And I would choke
Each breath is filled with smoke
Every time I try out my voice
It doesn’t make a noise

If I wasn’t so scared, then I’d know how to stop this
But it doesn’t seem real if I’m unconscious

Even though my hands are scorched I’ll keep on carrying this torch

Is it really spring again?
The time, it melts away
The fires keep burning
Could it last another day?
I could have been rescued
But I chose to stay in here
Don’t think I’m waking up
I’m sick of feeling

Is it really spring again
The time, it melts away
The fires keep burning
Could it last another day?
I could have been rescued
But I chose to stay in here
Don’t think I’m waking up
I’m sick of feeling scared
I’m so sick of feeling scared

Fashion Statement

Tell me what are you going for?
Over the top or less is more?
You could have chosen something better than this
But I respect that risk

They say that clothes make the man, I wonder what kind of man I am
Someone losing their sanity
Dress up the truth like the people won’t understand
So concerned about vanity

I know nothing of fashion
I can barely see
But our colors are clashing
Doesn’t look good to me
Keep telling lies right before my eyes
Don’t look good for me
Just try honesty

Tell me what are you trying to say
I need to look a certain way?
What are my options here?
I want you to watch, but
I don’t care about the optics
The truth can be so ugly

Why don’t you try to
To look your best while the spotlight is on you
I think the audience is gonna see right through
The face you're putting on
They know that it’s not true
So curtains up let’s start the show
And pray that they will never know

The truth can be ugly, but the colors are true
And I’m trying to be something that’s acceptable to you
So stop living lies, you don’t have to try
To look good to me
Just try honesty

Late Reply

I’m feeling too many things
I’m overstimulated
Can’t concentrate on any moves I’m making
I’m so frustrated
I’m always anxious
In this soul there’s vacancy
And I can’t take it

(So much to say)
It shouldn’t be this way
I’m given signs but I can’t tell which way to go
This anger pulses
My brain convulses going through the motions

And that’s why
I can’t talk to anyone
And I would rather stay inside
So goodbye
I can’t be reached at this time
If you call me they’ll be no reply
So don’t even try
‘Cause I’m gone and I’ve been this way for too long
It’s too late to change what’s gone wrong, you’d do better to just move on
Move on

I’m feeling too many things
I’ve been losing arguments that haven’t happened, feeling trapped in things I imagine
My mistakes lead me to complacency and I can’t take it
And I don’t know what to do first
Good feels bad, bad feels worse
The gift of thought is more like a curse
And it all hurts

And that’s why
I can’t talk to anyone
And I would rather stay inside
You say hi
I can’t look you in the eye
If you call me they’ll be no reply
So don’t even try
‘Cause I’m gone and I’ve been this way for too long
It’s too late to change what’s gone wrong, you’d do better to just move on
Move on

I can’t care for myself
And I know that you’re trying to help
But I can’t care for myself
How could I care about anyone else, when
I can’t care for myself (so much to say)
I know that you’re trying to help
(It shouldn’t be this way)
But I can’t care myself (so much to say)
How could I care about anyone else?
 (It shouldn’t be this way)

Interstate

Stay in your lane
Share this road
We share this space and we share this goal, but not you
We’re on same path from way back, now I’m an enemy to you
Don’t you know this life is mine?
And I do not have time for you to take away
You’re welcome for the misery

Just stay on your side

I just cannot take
This hate that you can’t help but cultivate
I shake
With anger and I can’t ever escape
Ingrate
But I won’t let these feelings go to waste
You’re fake
You’re fake
Why can’t you ever stay in your lane?

They Never Lie Down

I mean to live
I gotta see what happens
I have to see what will become of us
But the world
It keeps on turning
Love makes everything more dangerous

We’re leaves on the wind
So let the ride begin

We’ve come too far to turn back now
Might not make it out
(They don’t lie down, we don’t lie down)
Still can’t trust my mind, running low on time
(They don’t lie down, we don’t lie down now)

And I’ve got everything to prove
I’m safer on the move

The earth won’t stay beneath me
It’s only New York air I’m breathing now
And lately my body wants to take it easy
But Jersey traffic taught me never to slow down

We’re leaves on the wind
So let the ride begin
I know my sins, we all know how this ends
We are leaves on the wind
So let the ride begin

We’ve come too far to turn back now
Might not make it out
(They don’t lie down, we don’t lie down)
Still can’t trust my mind, running short on time
(They don’t lie down, we don’t lie down now)

We’ve come too far to turn back now
Might not make it out
(We never lie down, they never lie down)
Still can’t trust my mind, running out of time
(They never lie down, we never lie down)
We’ve got everything to prove  

Surviving The Night 

So if my story is coming true
I’m the hero and the monster too
And all that I can really do is make melodies of my memories
And hope my screams will reach you
How will I figure out just what this means?
My legs are tired from chasing dreams
And solving problems I create, I could change my mental state if I was awake

Last year I was asleep
To avoid all of the pain
But time forgot about me
And everything has changed
I just want to see the sky
And remember who I am
I want to live with open eyes
I’ve decided that I can
I’m waking up

I hate how the negative is all I see
And the thought of walking away is attractive to me
And sometimes I think I’ve had enough
But I could never get enough, I can’t live on love.

Last year I was asleep
To avoid all of the pain
But time forgot about me
And everything has changed
I just want to see the sky
And remember who I am
I want to live with open eyes
I decided that I can

I’m happy in my dreams
Because none of this is real
Sleep is the cousin of death
And that’s how I wanna feel
No one’s coming to the rescue
And I cannot stay in here
I’m sick of feeling nothing
I’d rather face the fear
Of waking up
I’m waking up

UNBREAKABLE

Artie (The Strongest Man In The World)

I’m decaying. Not sustaining
Stuck in bed.
My mind is drowsy
Negativity surrounds me
And I’m praying that you’re staying
But I feel the pressure building
You’re quitting and now you’re ready to leave

But maybe this is for the best
Give us some time to separate and find some peace in all of this
But then some pieces wouldn’t fit
We’re shattered beyond repair

Break me again
Your contempt condemns
Destroy a piece of me that’s irreplaceable
Take my body
Crush it all
Break my legs
Watch me fall
Sick of pretending to be unbreakable

Give me the reason I can’t find a single word
My mental state is bruised and beaten from looking for ways to make this work
You’ve got your demons
I’ve got a few more than I’d like
But that doesn’t give me a rhyme or reason to burn down everything in sight
Every time we fight I lose another week to lack of sleep
Keep my thoughts locked away with every promise you can’t keep

I thought you were all that I need
I gave my all and you just took

And you’ve got your demons
I’ve got a few more than I’d like

Break me again
Your contempt condemns
Destroy a piece of me that’s irreplaceable
Leave me shattered on the floor
Can’t rebuild this anymore
Sick of pretending to be unbreakable

I’m the unbreakable

I’m done with trying to be unbreakable

Reason

Stuck in my head
Only feel safe in my bed
But the anxiety is killing me
These pills don’t help with anything
Just want to fix all this
Just trying to do my best without sabotaging everything
I’m sabotaging everything

But it’s getting harder
Turning nightmares into dreams
Life is the monster
It leaves me weak at the knees
I feel like I’m blind and there’s no good to be seen
But when I see you smile it gives me a reason to breathe

Take these pills twice a day
Maybe then you’ll feel OK
Or maybe you’ll lose more of yourself
Start to feel like someone else
20 mg doesn’t make me who I am
It just helps me get through the day
Helps me numb some of the pain
Shattered glass on the floor
Substances killing me
I need something more

I’m stuck in routine
I need some kind of relief
A reason to breathe
I think I finally believe

Bargaining

I think I saw a ghost
I felt the cold phase through my bones
It made me feel so exposed
It felt so real. It felt like home

Was it you? (Was it you?)
It’s been 6 years
Since I heard your voice echo through my ears

This pain
Can’t stop myself from feeling
This way
6 years I’m still not healing
I hope I grow to be
(Please come back home to me)
The person I’m supposed to be
(I still feel you close to me)

I’m sure I saw you
When I looked in the mirror
I’m living for you
Every time I feel like this is it
I remember a time we were innocent
And it hurts each time I think of it
When you left it really did us in
But I will sing for you
I’d give anything for your help in dealing
You’re the reason why I’m feeling

Please just bring him back home
He didn’t mean to leave me
If only he could see I know he wouldn’t want me feeling

 

WALKABOUT 

I Always Knew

I'm so sick of your lack of compassion, your cold eyes and your passive aggression
You look right through me like you never knew me
My bones are weak and my skin is bruised and scarred
I don't know who you are anymore
I let you abuse me
How could you do this to me?

This constant rejection is digging deeper everyday
You focus in on every imperfection
I can feel you slipping away but I don't want to let go

What did I do to deserve this? (The pain you caused)
Was it all on purpose? (I gave you my heart)
You just made me feel worthless (We're too far gone)
Nothing could ever reverse this

Now I know what's coming but I'm still not ready to let you go
I don't like what we're becoming
Just talk to me
Please let me know that I'm not losing you

I always knew you'd be the one to break my heart in two
It's too much to take
I'd say I need you but you'd never believe me
I have to move on
I know that you don't need me

Well that may not be true
But what else could I think when I listen to you
You put yourself down every step of the way
When I tell you I love you, you don't believe me
Why can’t you believe?

Now I know what's coming but I'm still not ready to hear those words
I wish I could start running so this pain in my heart won't get any worse
I know I'm losing you

I never needed you
You never needed me
You never needed me
And I don't need you

High Cholesterol

Can you give me a cogent reason why I gravitate to things that no one likes?
And do I really want to be this way?
No
But I itch and I can't scratch
My back is aching for the lash
I'm a glutton for the punishment but starving for what I can never get

For the first time in my life I just want to do what’s right with a childlike wonder
That won’t put me under you.
For the first time in my life I just want to do what feels right with a childlike wonder
That won’t put me under you.

And sometimes I don't want to be anything, anyone like me
And though the world must share my hate, why is it so hard to relate?

Well lately now I find I want to be innocent, experienced at the same time
And time is precious agony
It's never ending yet fleeting from me

You don't know what’s in my heart but I can show you
You don't know what’s in my heart

Jamestown

These drunken nights are starting to bore me
I'm turned off every time you ignore me
Your constant lies are becoming too much to take and this high school drama does nothing for me

All I wanted was your honesty
But you couldn't just be honest with me

So I'm moving on from this mistake
You fade away with every breath I take
I'm sick of trying to fix what I can't change
And I feel sick when I hear your name

Another day
Another bottle
Another way to drown your sorrows
Can’t imagine what it’s like to live a life so numb
So devoid of all emotion
Look at what you've become
You're a shell, a shell of what you once were
Can't look me in the eyes and give me a straight answer
Now I'm down on my knees
Can't figure out how you feel
And I'm begging you please
Just tell me this is for real

So I'm moving on from this mistake
You fade away with every breath I take
I'm sick of trying to fix what I can't change
And I feel sick when I hear your name
I'm letting go of the idea of spending my life with you
You were never in love and I was never enough

Now I'm making room inside for someone deserving
For years I had tried not to share any space
Thought that part of me had died with no will to fight
Now I'm feeling revived
I hope this never goes away

Miranda

I can't find the humanity
I'm all alone

We can't change what we're meant to be
I can't condone
We're no different.
We are simply beasts
What we all do
We kill our own if it fits our needs
Can we improve?

We were not meant to be more than animals
We were not meant to be more than animals
We're hunting in packs, killing together
They tell us they think they can make people better
They can't because this is all we are

I'm not part of humanity
I'm all alone
I can't change what I'm meant to be
I can't condone
Can't be saviors
What we all do
Kill our brothers
Can we improve?

We selfish animals who walk the globe
Looking out for ourselves is all we know
We're hunting in packs, killing together
They tell us they think they can make people better
They can't because this is all we are

Misbehave

I'm a masochistic optimist scared of everything I'm up against and I can't find solid ground with my head up in the clouds
Sometimes I don't wanna be here but I'm looking for acceptance
Searching for some common sense in a bundle of contradictions

And when your life is spent coping with living can you really call that living at all?
And can you be sure that you have perspective while you're shielding your eyes from it all?

So take me as I am
And you can take my hand while I talk about the long run while I can barely stand
And I'll make the best laid plans because this is who I am
Just someone trying to make sense of what I don't understand

It's like a stress test to have a normal conversation
Too much anger and frustration at the surface
And all that I am basing this is being subpar at relationships
And the toll that this is taking is obvious

And when you spend your life coping with living can you really call that living at all?
And can you make any progress with your back against the wall?

I'm the sum of my experience, plus all the places that I've been
I hope that's enough in the end
Divided by the pain I feel, plus all the love that makes this real
I hope that's enough in the end

Live Together, Die Alone

I'm not concerned

This world is smaller than it seems
Maybe if you look outside you'll see just what I mean
And I don't mean outside your window
Perspective is so quintessential
A captain's role is not that simple
I don't ever realize my potential
(I use) ten percent of my brain and I'd kill for the other ninety
Maybe then I'd have the strength to put my own road blocks behind me

So I'm making plans to change this misanthropic mind of mine and I've got a funny feeling I actually mean it this time.
Because if I stay for one more second, my soul will die at twenty-seven
And I won't pay the cost for another lowlife lost

I take back what I said
I'm quite concerned that there's things I should have learned, like the right things to do to keep my breathing
Because I can't think about salaries or calories, formalities
They all just constantly fight me and it does nothing for my psyche

Just to stay alive, I had to give myself away
We had a funeral and a birth on the same day
It took me all of a year to accept that I'm okay
We had a funeral and a birth on the same day

 

FOLLOW YOUR NIGHTMARES

Pink Cloud 9

You may never see me again
Not while I'm in the state I'm in
But if you do you can be sure it's
Just a character performance
Will you wait for me while I accept
My current status as a side effect?
And as I address my mood,
I feel a sudden change of altitude

I can see my house from here, and I like the view but it's dark up here
So, no tea and sympathy
While I market my misery
I can never crash and drown
if I never come down

Don't you dare ask me to stop
Couldn't even if I wanted to
But my addiction
Is self infliction
Never been so in love
I've never been so in love

But I'm actually okay.
Still got a ways to go
And that'll be nice to say
When I'm 28 years old
I can't see into the future, but

I can see my house from here
I like the view
You'd like it, too

I can see my house from here, and I like the view but it's dark up here
So, no tea and sympathy
while I market my misery
I'll never crash and drown

Candy Cane Forest

The problem with a safety net is that even if you need one, it still means that you're gonna fall

I find forgiveness to be seldom seen and, of all the feelings you can have I think that pity's worst of all
I've been thinking ‘bout where this began
When I was trapped inside a place I simply couldn't stand
And now the journeys take me to a place that's one of courage
But I'm too scared to leave
(I'm too scared)

Someone out there please explain
The difference between love and pain
‘Cause I've been be tryna figure
Why they're starting to feel the same

The problem with a safety net is that even if you need one, it still means that you're gonna fall
I find rescues to be seldom seen when you're far too cowardly to even answer when they call
Some friends of mine hold out their hands
And say let’s get motivated to do the best we can
But the more I reach back to them to pull them closer, the more I push them away
(I'm too scared)

Someone out there please explain
The difference between love and pain
‘Cause I've been be tryna figure
Why they're starting to feel the same
And I can't bring myself to get
The difference between life and death
‘Cause I've been tryna figure
Why they're starting to feel the same

Life can't be about just trying not to die

Safety Harbor

That day I could've been anyone I wanted to be but
That day I just wanted to be me

I've spent everyday this year trying to break out of this stasis
Therapeutic isolation, on an everyday basis
And I'm always surrounded by the constant threat of evil
And I can't look at myself and can't be seen by other people
Like I'm always chasing peace, and my god damn legs don't work
But I saw something to behold and I just wanted to observe a while

Felt like summer in November, and for a moment I felt better

I always feel like this
In an identity crisis
And that day I could've been anyone I wanted to be but
That day I just wanted to be me

But I don't most days, and that’s gotta change
That can't be the best way to do this
I don't feel wanted
All I feel is haunted, by memories of trying to get through this
There's people progressing that I keep denying
While I comment on the sideline and mock them for trying
Not knowing how good I could be
Next Halloween I wanna dress up as me

I always feel like this
In an identity crisis
And that day I could've been anyone I wanted to be but
That day I just wanted to be me

Therapeutic isolation
I need to rise above my station
If nothing I do matters, all that matters is what I do

Follow Your Nightmares

I’m worried pain is the strongest feeling I'll ever have

If pain reveals who we truly are, then maybe I'm not so bad
I'm gonna die trying to make a point no one's ever going to get
I'm not discouraged enough to shut up yet

I want to be out there
There must be something
I wanna follow my nightmares
So here goes nothing

I wanna be an outlier, look stupid in the front row
I wanna be innocent, experienced, go places I'd never go
I've spent enough time on my knees in worship.
And now it's time to kill my idols
I'll make sure that their death takes a while

Let me out of here
I want to do what scares me